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July 2009 
missing my voice
Posted on Jun 14th, 2009
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Spiritual Liberation
Spiritual Liberation
One of my students called me on the carpet tonight. She said she felt angry listening to me giving a presentation last week because I didn't sound like me, I sounded like my teacher. She wanted to know where my voice went. She said it was my voice, not my teacher's, who gave her the courage to leap into her own greatness, to have the courage to change and grow beyond her self-imposed limitation. And now where was I hiding?
She said she'd been struggling with her self-esteem lately, and she wonders if it is because I have lost mine.
Have I gone from being her cheerleader to holding her back with my own dysfunction?
And where has my voice gone??? I don't know my own voice anymore. As you can all see, I hardly ever even write anymore because I have lost touch with what it is I have to say. I don't really talk on the phone with friends. I don't go to lunch or hang out with people. I avoid most group situations. I don't teach anymore.
Where have I gone? What have I done with myself? Where did my confidence go?
Am I going through a 'natural' phase on the spiritual path, or have I gone awry?
I am completely without reference points here.
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Hi, Shani - my most recent blog resonates deeply with what you've written here. I especially appreciated Hal's comment about expanding awareness. And Karen Bishop's most recent energy update speaks to it as well.
peace and gentle blessings -
Sylvia