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journey of transformation
Posted on Aug 7th, 2008
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Spiritual Liberation
Spiritual Liberation
It was interesting to me last night...On the bi-weekly community conference call with my teacher, he said, "If you are on a true journey of transformation, the journey does not get easier." He spoke of how difficult the path can get and how we must persevere.
I felt like he was speaking directly to me even though I have not spoken with him about any of the trials I've been facing the past few weeks except my husband being in the hospital, and even that was only facts about my husband's condition, not about how I was or wasn't dealing with it (although I'm sure he knew).
It was interesting, because Joey said that all obstacles are put before us by our own higher selves to show us something within ourselves, or to teach us something we will need to know to move to the next level.
When I was following the ambulance containing my husband to the hospital downtown, I had been thinking and wondering what his soul had agreed to help me learn here, what my soul had brought me and why, and so then to have my teacher speak on the very same idea was pretty interesting. It felt like a confirmation that I am on the right track and that I should keep going. Persevere. It's not supposed to be easy, but you have to keep going. Ahhhhhh.
It felt like a huge sigh of relief.
So then last night I had a dream that all kinds of things were going 'wrong', from crashing my car to a band of assasins hunting me and trying to kill me, but I was calm and centered during all of it, amused even, and not the least bit afraid. At the end of the dream I finally got rid of a huge thing that has been a recurring dream theme, and I laughed and laughed. There was even a news report about my release in my dream!
I woke up, and somehow I felt that the dream was symbolic of me letting go of whatever I'd been holding onto that was causing my soul to bring me this batch of lessons. I felt really good.
Something else I find interesting is how the Universe or my higher self orchestrated my husband's temporary infirmity in such a way that I had to tell people (not something I would normally have done until after, if at all). Monday night was meditation group, so I had to call and let them know I wasn't coming and why, and Tuesday night was kung fu, and I had to call and let them know I wasn't coming and why. And I had to cancel some appointments. With each conversation, I tried to downplay and minimize it all, and yet everyone wanted to help, to be of service, to support and nurture. It was a beautiful thing.
I felt like he was speaking directly to me even though I have not spoken with him about any of the trials I've been facing the past few weeks except my husband being in the hospital, and even that was only facts about my husband's condition, not about how I was or wasn't dealing with it (although I'm sure he knew).
It was interesting, because Joey said that all obstacles are put before us by our own higher selves to show us something within ourselves, or to teach us something we will need to know to move to the next level.
When I was following the ambulance containing my husband to the hospital downtown, I had been thinking and wondering what his soul had agreed to help me learn here, what my soul had brought me and why, and so then to have my teacher speak on the very same idea was pretty interesting. It felt like a confirmation that I am on the right track and that I should keep going. Persevere. It's not supposed to be easy, but you have to keep going. Ahhhhhh.
It felt like a huge sigh of relief.
So then last night I had a dream that all kinds of things were going 'wrong', from crashing my car to a band of assasins hunting me and trying to kill me, but I was calm and centered during all of it, amused even, and not the least bit afraid. At the end of the dream I finally got rid of a huge thing that has been a recurring dream theme, and I laughed and laughed. There was even a news report about my release in my dream!
I woke up, and somehow I felt that the dream was symbolic of me letting go of whatever I'd been holding onto that was causing my soul to bring me this batch of lessons. I felt really good.
Something else I find interesting is how the Universe or my higher self orchestrated my husband's temporary infirmity in such a way that I had to tell people (not something I would normally have done until after, if at all). Monday night was meditation group, so I had to call and let them know I wasn't coming and why, and Tuesday night was kung fu, and I had to call and let them know I wasn't coming and why. And I had to cancel some appointments. With each conversation, I tried to downplay and minimize it all, and yet everyone wanted to help, to be of service, to support and nurture. It was a beautiful thing.
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Shani,
Although my comments may be neither wise nor insightful :) I wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your deep sharing. Your blogs always seem to resonate strongly with what's going on in my life.
The dream sounds like a reason to celebrate…sounds like you're opening up and stepping into your authentic power my friend.
Thank you for sharing your experience, Shani. Your experience also confirms my own insights from current events.
Most specifically speaking, that as we continue down this journey, the challenges of life do not get any easier, but we stand taller and learn how to apply the tools given to us. That is the key point: the tests keep coming, and may even be harder than ever, but we have been learning, and now the tests appear to us as a chance to apply what we've learned.
I am glad your husband is doing well. Again, thank you thank you thank you for sharing your thoughts, and the words of your teacher. My own Self has brought me to your words, I'm sure, in preparation for more challenges on my own journey.
Namaste.
Lisa