Heart Pounding Perfection

There is something unfolding in my heart that is just...wow.

I know I've been eerily silent here. Perhaps you were wondering if I fell into a hole. Nah. I've felt like any attempt to assign words to the experience I'm having will only serve to limit the bigness of it, or bring it down to a human level of understanding. It is beyond that exponentially.

The intensive with my teacher in Denver was in-freaking-credible.

During my personal session, something happened in my heart...this electricity, this pounding and squeezing and breathless ecstasy. Do you remember having crushes when you were in junior high? Do you remember how everything about the other was perfect and nothing needed to make any sense? Do you remember that squeezy, excited, breath catching in the throat kind of heartgasm you'd experience when you caught a glimpse or even just had a thought about your crush? Now imagine that times 100, and we might be getting close to what I experienced in my session.

The other practitoners were like, 'Yeah, I'll have what she's having.'

After that, we went back in the hall for an evening meditation. I went sooo somewhere...and nowhere. I was there, but I was everywhere. I was in the room, but I was unlimited and uncontained. At the end of the meditation, Joey asked the practitioners to meet Shani for training, and when when he said my name- somehow that caused a reaction in the body to suck air in as if I had just come back to life from being dead for awhile. I think it was the sound of my soul rushing back into the body. :) It was kind of funny and kind of startling.

So, yeah, I had a great time.