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June 2009 
Adventurous Spirit
Posted on Dec 25th, 2008
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Spiritual Liberation
Spiritual Liberation
There's a lot of stuff I'd like to do. I want to explore my world. I've been exploring my inner world for a few years, and now in addition to that I am beginning to explore my outer world as well. But I want to go further now, beyond vegan vs vegetarian (you know, the truth is that I really like eggs and cheese and I really don't like milk) or judgementally sober vs tossing back a hard lemonade every now and then (which, as it turns out, I also enjoy).
I've taken little steps and now I'm ready to venture a little further out of my small world. What's in Omaha? Chicago? Toronto? Baja? Right now it's enough to imagine exploring my continent. Soon enough I'll be exploring some of the other 6 of them.
I can imagine waking up in the morning, hopping in my vehicle and having an experience, an adventure, exploring my world. I came here to play! Oh my goodness there is so much to do! White water rafting and bungee jumping and hiking up the side of a volcano just to peer over the rim...I want to swim with dolphins and experience the mystical nature of this planet for myself. I am made of this planet. I am this earth. In discovering what she offers, I discover my own nature.
Why not create opportunities to affirm life? I've been the walking dead for far too long.
Those of you who know me now- well, you might not believe I was the same person if you'd known me a few years ago. My motto was "Safety First!" I was afraid to drive, afraid to leave my home, afraid of EVERYTHING. Anything and everything could spin out of control in my mind as a fatality waiting to happen. I was so terrified of death that I became what I most feared. I was the opposite of life. I lived my life with tunnel vision with the single focus of survival.
Oh. How. Small.
Somehow I thought I could make my life safe and stable. I wanted security and constance.
As it turns out, though, change is the only constant. And you know, that was really not much fun to learn (but even less fun to deny). It's hard to let go of the illusion of security.
Turns out I'm not quite done with that lesson. I still get to discover who I'm not on a daily basis. I still have to let go of that which is not mine and never really was. That is not always easy.
I think that is part of why I feel so ready to embrace my more adventurous spirit.
I've taken little steps and now I'm ready to venture a little further out of my small world. What's in Omaha? Chicago? Toronto? Baja? Right now it's enough to imagine exploring my continent. Soon enough I'll be exploring some of the other 6 of them.
I can imagine waking up in the morning, hopping in my vehicle and having an experience, an adventure, exploring my world. I came here to play! Oh my goodness there is so much to do! White water rafting and bungee jumping and hiking up the side of a volcano just to peer over the rim...I want to swim with dolphins and experience the mystical nature of this planet for myself. I am made of this planet. I am this earth. In discovering what she offers, I discover my own nature.
Why not create opportunities to affirm life? I've been the walking dead for far too long.
Those of you who know me now- well, you might not believe I was the same person if you'd known me a few years ago. My motto was "Safety First!" I was afraid to drive, afraid to leave my home, afraid of EVERYTHING. Anything and everything could spin out of control in my mind as a fatality waiting to happen. I was so terrified of death that I became what I most feared. I was the opposite of life. I lived my life with tunnel vision with the single focus of survival.
Oh. How. Small.
Somehow I thought I could make my life safe and stable. I wanted security and constance.
As it turns out, though, change is the only constant. And you know, that was really not much fun to learn (but even less fun to deny). It's hard to let go of the illusion of security.
Turns out I'm not quite done with that lesson. I still get to discover who I'm not on a daily basis. I still have to let go of that which is not mine and never really was. That is not always easy.
I think that is part of why I feel so ready to embrace my more adventurous spirit.
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