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being tested
June 2009 
Why the Tests?
Posted on Oct 2nd, 2006
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Spiritual Liberation
Spiritual Liberation
In the past week I've been told by half a dozen people, in different ways, that they are more spiritualy advanced than me. Okay, thank you. What else can I say? It's funny to watch how people are confused when you don't react to what they say. I don't think they are even consciously aware of the passive-aggressive nature of their statements, but on some level, they understand what they are doing, because they don't know what to do when they don't get a certain reaction.
How does one compare their spiritual progress anyway? Isn't that like an oxymoron or something? Isn't that an ego thing? How can any of us ever determine we are better at spirituality, or more advanced, than anyone else on the planet and beyond? As far as I know, the homeless man on the freeway offramp is a spiritual master who volunteered to spend this lifetime helping humanity with the lesson of compassion. Or the doctor with a crummy bedside manner was divinely inspired to help me turn toward homeopathy. Or maybe the Muslim teen who smiled so sweetly at me was planting seeds of peace and love in my soul (she was, I felt it!). Who am I to even attempt to know the depths of someone's soul or their purpose on this planet or what karma they are balancing?
Every path is a path to God, to Source, to our own beautiful soul- whatever you want to call it, or even if you aren't comfortable with any name or label. That is okay. We are all headed the same direction. You do not have to believe in God to be a spiritual master or to make a huge difference in your sphere of influence.
One of the silliest things I hear is that my family can't not be Christian because we are too moral and ethical and spiritual to not be. How can we be this way and not identify with this label. How can we live by the tennets of any/all religions and not be religous? Obviously, we need to be lying, theiving scoundrels so we can make things okay for people who want to put us in a box marked 'heathens' and forget about us. We break the rules.
But we don't. There are no rules. Let me say that again... There are no rules. None. Zip. Zilch. Zero. Nada. We are beings of unlimited potential.
I feel a lot lately like I am being tested. Even in my dreams, tests come. I don't know why, except that maybe the universe is trying to see where I am and if I am reactionary or not.
How does one compare their spiritual progress anyway? Isn't that like an oxymoron or something? Isn't that an ego thing? How can any of us ever determine we are better at spirituality, or more advanced, than anyone else on the planet and beyond? As far as I know, the homeless man on the freeway offramp is a spiritual master who volunteered to spend this lifetime helping humanity with the lesson of compassion. Or the doctor with a crummy bedside manner was divinely inspired to help me turn toward homeopathy. Or maybe the Muslim teen who smiled so sweetly at me was planting seeds of peace and love in my soul (she was, I felt it!). Who am I to even attempt to know the depths of someone's soul or their purpose on this planet or what karma they are balancing?
Every path is a path to God, to Source, to our own beautiful soul- whatever you want to call it, or even if you aren't comfortable with any name or label. That is okay. We are all headed the same direction. You do not have to believe in God to be a spiritual master or to make a huge difference in your sphere of influence.
One of the silliest things I hear is that my family can't not be Christian because we are too moral and ethical and spiritual to not be. How can we be this way and not identify with this label. How can we live by the tennets of any/all religions and not be religous? Obviously, we need to be lying, theiving scoundrels so we can make things okay for people who want to put us in a box marked 'heathens' and forget about us. We break the rules.
But we don't. There are no rules. Let me say that again... There are no rules. None. Zip. Zilch. Zero. Nada. We are beings of unlimited potential.
I feel a lot lately like I am being tested. Even in my dreams, tests come. I don't know why, except that maybe the universe is trying to see where I am and if I am reactionary or not.
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When I think about this I think that we are all exactly where we are supposed to be. We all have something to add. We all have something to teach.
More importantly, we all have something to learn.
you make me smile
Transformation can be intense and others will come to make sure that you are given the opportunity to move through the birthing process-spiritual midwives… share the namaste….or the love and light or whatever term sits well with you… I know you know what I mean!!!
Smiling
Katrina
IMO: There is a slight under current of anger that I sense in your post. When I write something like that, it usually means that I am kicking down the walls of my current box and using anger to do it. After some struggle, like wiggling out of a cocoon, I end up in a much larger place. I become free, but I also have to let go of many things to get out of the old box.
Pardon me if this is all wrong.
I have to smile too. At the post, the comments, and all that this brings to my mind.
“A good vent is a terrible thing to waste”. ;) Adding a wink here because of the frame of mind my own inner self is in right now. And after reading S-L's thoughts within this blog, it could possibly be one of those posts that you could read one day and interpret it one way, and the next it could hit you completely different? But I truly love the openness and honesty in which it was written and shared, and likewise the caring and thought provoking comments in reply.
“Every path is a path to God, to Source, to our own beautiful soul- whatever you want to call it, or even if you aren't comfortable with any name or label.”
That is the heart and spirit of the post for myself. Thank you for it. :)
Some days can be so magical can't they? :)))
Love to all,
Di
Had one more thought as well….. I keep gettting them and a'wanting to add on. :)
“I feel a lot lately like I am being tested. Even in my dreams, tests come. I don't know why, except that maybe the universe is trying to see where I am and if I am reactionary or not.”
I am walking through this as well, just as I wrote in my blog this morning. I am not certain the universe trying to see if I am reactionary or not…. it feels more like I am being shown my own balance and need for a foundation. But regardless of it, I think many lessons end with tests? :))) Just a thought.
I love you all so much. Thank you so much for taking the time to leave comments. You are all such beautiful spirits!
Spirit Flower, thank you for your honesty. :) I have been thinking about your comment all day, trying to honestly assess the anger issue. It is interesting, because I think you are picking up on something real about the situation, but I don't feel it was in the post. Of course, if it is in me at all, then it might come through the post…
When each of these things came up - and it was always kind of off-topic, just a 'thought you should know' sort of thing, I was taken by suprise everytime. I found it curious, but did not take offense or argue. After the fact- like hours later- my ego was like HEY! THAT WAS INSULTING! AREN'T YOU GOING TO GET MAD ABOUT THIS??? And I was like, NO, SHUT-UP! hahaha. But a couple times, my ego was really working me to get worked up about it. I am wondering if you are sensing that struggle within me. And it also occurred to me to wonder, even as I wrote that first paragraph, if by feeling the need to write about it, I was unfinished with it. Perhaps.
I am tickled by how 'on' you are. I just wrote to someone last night and said I felt like I was finally coming out of the cocoon I've been in for weeks. :)
Om shanti.
egos do not like us to kick down boxes and be free! Egos are the ones that build the boxes. Of course my ego complains when I decide to kick down a box. No harm in getting angry and directing that power towards growth. Anger tells us something is wrong and then we can use it to get out of the box.